I honestly do not even know where to begin. I am still in shock. Then again, maybe I shouldn't be. But WOW... what an actor.
So, you wanna know why I am baffled. Let me tell you.
2024, one of my close friends came to me asking if I had a
room to rent for someone. I did and did
not. I had the room, just needed to make
the room. So we made room for her, but
it wasn't completely empty. Some of my things were still stored there.
Nina moved in and, we were on a week-to-week agreement. She paid weekly, and the rent was reduced
because the room wasn't entirely hers yet.
We were two completely different people, but I could use the help and I
really wanted to help her where I could.
We talked daily, she helped around the house and worked her
random jobs all week. We talked about
her struggles, her losses, and the ways we related to each other's experiences. However, she and I handled our past trauma
very differently. Which is OK. It was weird and fun to have her there. She is only a few years older than me. We were born into the same generation but
grew up in very different parts of America.
I do not remember how long she lived with me the first
time. My house was chaotic then. I
mean... it still is, but back then it was really bad. She moved in, it was just myself and
Wyatt. But my ex came back to help and
things were good until they were not. I
made the chaos and drama going on in my life abundantly clear, so she had an
idea of what she was walking into.
Fast forward to whenever.
I think she stayed a few months.
While I was at work, she packed up all her things, left the keys on the
counter and told my son she could not do this and was gone. No text, no call, no note. She did not owe me money. She did not take anything from me. In fact, she left things she could not take
with her she wanted out so bad for whatever reason. Blocked on everything and ghosted like a
cheap date.
Let’s now jump to maybe the end of March 2026 where she unblocks
me or whatever on Facebook and makes a comment on a post or two of mine. So, I reach out. I asked how she'd been and what she'd been up
to. She was not in Colorado
anymore. But she wanted to come back. I explained that I was planning to move out
of state...but I have a lot of work that needs to be done in my house in order
to prepare to move. I told her if she wants to come back and help, she can stay
rent free so to speak for a few months and then she would start paying. There was so much to do and I had little time
and motivation.
She got a flight out here so fast it was crazy but I was
cool with it.
Before she came out, I had one request.
Do not ghost me again.
We are adults. If you want to move out, tell me. If I need
you to find another place to live, I'll tell you. We can have uncomfortable
conversations. We don't have to disappear from each other's lives.
She promised she wouldn't do it again.
I believed her.
She got here, this time has a whole room to herself. Her own space. The garage fridge was basically hers to use,
and she had space in the kitchen too. Storage
in the garage and a yard to sit out in.
She helped so much with the house. I rented a 30-yard dumpster and we filled
that sucker. Wyatt and Nina did a lot
more of the work than I did, if we're being honest... haha. She really did help so much with the main level
of the home and the yard.
One of her goals was finally attempting the Manitou Incline,
so a few weeks after she arrived, we went together. I had always wanted to do it too but had
never been motivated enough. Because of Nina, I can honestly say I completed
the Manitou Incline. The top was
amazing.
We talked about her coming with us out of state when we
move. I really thought of her with every
house I looked at. Making sure if it did
not have a 4th bedroom, it had something that could be turned into a
room or another structure outside. We did
errands together, I would take her places if she needed. We went to dinners with my boys, for Mother’s
Day as well, did an escape room and probably more I am not remembering at the
moment. It was nice. We were friends. Or so I thought.
Today June 25, 2026 I was home sick again. I have been sick for 2 days now. I think it was something I ate. Thank God I think I am finally coming to the
end of it. But the night is not over….haha OK back on track. She asks me if I need anything, let me know
if she can help in any way since I am sick.
We talk on and off. My son is on
the computer looking for a job, she comes in and talks with us and helps some. Nothing out of the norm. She tells me she is gonna have her new friend
come over and hang and I am like cool.
They hung out yesterday and I know how much Nina enjoyed her
company. They met a short while back at
the gym when we went.
Wyatt and I had to do a quick errand. We were gone for about 20 minutes. I told her we would be right back. We go do our thing, and on my way home, my
friend who actually introduced us back in 2024 sends me a message saying “WTH is
going on?” My reply “Huh?” She then sends me a screenshot of Nina
messaging her on Facebook saying never to speak to her again. I am like I have no idea. I will ask her if she was hacked when I get
home. I will be home in a few. Then it hit me, well if she is there. We both were like, “Did she leave again?” I was like no, that cannot be. Something is off. I get home and I checked…she is gone! I look at my phone and on Messenger I see I
have a message from Nina saying “Please do not speak to me again.”
OK OK OK. What in the
actual fuck?! I am irritated. We are
supposed to be adults. Friends even. How
do you disappear again without saying a word?
We had a small thing the other day and I talked with her about it. Told her why I was upset with what happened
and we discussed it like adults and moved on.
I feel like she had been planning this for longer than that one small
disagreement. It was something I had already gotten over. I only wanted to talk
about it so we'd understand each other if it ever happened again. But maybe it was. I do not know.
This is just not how you treat people.
Just like last time, she owed me no money. July was going to be her first month paying
actual rent, and she did not take anything.
Just left a bunch of stuff. Which
I am not sure why she did not just grab a trash bag and take it with her. They were things I see her use often. Whatever, I am just lost.
Emotionally, I am all over the place. I am hurt and pissed. I am confused and back to thinking what in
the world is wrong with me that she would just up and leave. I had similar thoughts when she left in
2024. But in 2024 at least I could find
some solace in thinking I get why she left.
So much crap with the courts, with my kids, with my ex, drinking more
than I should. But it was still a roof
over her head, space to call her own. Because
back then she was living in her car before living with me. This time she was using one of those
room-rental apps—kind of like Airbnb, but for longer stays.
Then the good person in me is a little worried. Is this new person that is helping her safe, will
she take advantage of her? And I will
never know because we are not to ever speak again and she blocked me on
Facebook again. That's who I am. I can be and am livid right now, but I am
still worried about her wellbeing. Do I
throw out all her stuff or give it a few just in case she comes back for it? I am OK with her getting it. I know she has very little with her right
now.
Fool me once...Shame on you.
Fool me twice...Apparently I still have some lessons to
learn.
But there will not be a third time. That is for certain.
#MyBeautifulShitShow #FooledTwice #StillInShock #Trust
#Friendship
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